Approaching a journey’s end …
So, I just got the call from the dentist brother-in-law, scheduling the last appointment with the oral surgeon for next Tuesday morning. After the fitting and placement of the locators for my bottom plate, we’ll be heading to my brother-in-law’s office to take impressions to make the plate match and accept the locators with the hardware permanently affixed in the bottom, and the top plate re-aligned and relined to meet the tissue changes in the last six months. The end of the journey is seven days away.
Ten and one-half months after beginning, so now the end approaches. I should be dancing on table tops. What I’m really doing is trying not to cry.
Why cry, you ask. Well, because it has been a long, emotionally draining nearly a year … and I’m exhausted by it all. The first half of the journey saw me out in public with plates in place TWO DAYS after having all my teeth removed. And I never stopped smiling. It was empowering. The last six months? not so much. I’ve worn/used the plates for probably 36 total hours since January. I’ve kind of been trapped in my house by not being able to wear them and that isn’t good. Eating has been an adventure.
The surgeon and dentist have been amazing at helping me by making short-term use adaptations to the plates, to permit me to go do public function things – appear in court for trials, stuff like that. But only for a few hours at a time. Heck, the grandson thinks I look weird with the plates in now, he’s so used to seeing me without them.
None of this is to say I’m not oh-so-forever-grateful for this process. But, like many good things, there has been a price to pay.
In the last few months, I’ve been laid off from my job, but unable to go out and get another because of the denture journey. VERY hard to apply for a job with the dentures in, and say ‘oh, by the way, I’ll be undergoing another series of appointments with the oral surgeon over the next 3 months and will need time off for that and recovery time, okay?’ when you’re interviewing. Better, really, to just wait. So money’s been a real problem.
Now, I see the future coming at me, and if it is going to punch me dead in the face, I hope it lets me take the dentures out first. I don’t want to have to go through this again for a while.
When I started on this journey, I thought it would be over by the end of March. The change to the path in January – getting the locators in the bottom plate – extended the terminal point. I knew back in September when it began that April was a critical time for me – when the job would likely melt into nothingness and I also anticipated an upward swing in the legal job market at that time. I was right about that – jobs DID open up that I was qualified for and could have gotten. That market has been gradually slowing down again.
Now? I’ve been working, actually, throughout the period from lay off to now, but doing contract work, not an ’employee’s’ job. Contract work can be exciting, and this has been, but it carries with it uncertainty – there is no guarantee about the day you’ll be paid, as there is when you’re employed and your pay check is due to be deposited on the last business day of the month, for example. Uncertainty continues … and I’m getting a bit old for this, you know?
So, all in all, good news that it is over, but badness in that the timing is stinky. One thing IS certain though: The journey will have been worth it, but I will be glad when it is over.
My coffee has brewed, there is work to be done, and yarn awaits me on the other side of that drafted complaint. It is Friday, the end of the week. And I will be here, in full grin, next Friday!
With Coffee, dogs and yarn! That is all!